My Fault

Pictures fade,
But memories wont die,
This video plays,
About you and I,
I try to press stop,
Put it on hold,
But the video plays,
A story untold,
A veiw never seen,
By you and I,
A veiw showing,
Of how we died,
All the sudden I see,
My selfish acts,
All the stuff you told me,
Were actual facts,
My leaving you alone,
Left to cry in the dark,
And then of how I blammed you,
For all my scars,
I said the death of me
Was completely caused by you
But what I couldn't see
Was that it wasnt true
All these stupid games
That i somehow never saw
Little did I know,
This is all my fault,
All my pain,
And the tears in your eyes,
I shouldve seen,
I was just telling myself lies,
When you needed me most,
I was too selfish to see,
All the times you wanted help,
I only looked out for me,
Me myself and I,
That's how my life was lived,
Now I see I was selfish,
And I pray to be forgived,
Forgiveness is a gift,
Of which I dont deserve,
But now I want you to see,
All that I have learned,
Ive turned myself in,
To my own worst enemy,
I look into the mirror,
But I am not what I see,
I see a stranger,
So lost and dark,
I see this messed up side,
So tatterd, torn, and marked,
The creature lies within,
Screamin out of pain,
But this thing inside me,
Is what I cannot regain,
Ive sunk too far,
And changed too fast,
I shouldve known,
Acting wouldnt last,
Now I have to face,
What ive always feared,
Because I know now,
That the end is crawling near,
With every lie and excuse,
My days dwindle down,
Now I seem to hold my breath,
Asphyxiated I will drown,
Drown in my lies,
drown in my hate,
Because i know now,
I am what I create...